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Journal Entry: Sat Mar 22, 2008, 6:15 PM
Winter term is finally over, thank God, and this is the part where I fill you in on unnecessarily explicit details of my personal life. Because I like to.

Last term was downright strange. Around midterms I started having these fits where I would suddenly feel like I couldn't get enough air, which sent me to the doctor for the first time in years. It felt like a heart attack, but I guess it was really more like a panic attack without the panic. She told me to go sleep it off, but that never really happened. I was probably the most depressed I've been in a long time, but I didn't really feel it... there was just a strange and terrible nothingness. After about three weeks of this, everything suddenly felt completely amazing for a week. Difficult to explain, but I felt close to something. And then the panic attacks came back. More recently accompanied by nausea. ...I'm hoping spring break will be enough rest to keep me from completely destroying myself.

I'm finally done with all of the required basic art classes, which is good because the last one I took just about made me crazy. We made plywood chairs, which would have been fun except the working conditions were frustrating beyond words. I'm still not quite done with the chair, but it should be done before too long. I'm still working on my embroidered dress, too... which should also be done soon. In theory, anyway.

Organic chemistry is hard. College is lonely. I don't know anyone in the chemistry department yet and I don't feel like I really fit-in in the art department. I'm not artsy enough, I guess... I feel like I'm too practical. I haven't heard back from the product design program yet, either... which is sort of lame but oh well. I'm going to try and take it easy next term. No art classes, which should give me a lot more time for my own projects. Emphasis on "should." Anymore I'm just hoping I'll survive.

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~Nikandedd:iconNikandedd: Mar 25, 2008, 5:28:23 PM
That sounds terrible my friend. Don't destroy yourself. I hope next term is mellower, which will give you not only time to work on personal projects, but also hang out with your neglected collegiate buddies (cough cough ME cough).

I havnt heard from the PD people either, but I dont think I will till I get back in town from spring break. Keep me posted if you hear from them!

-NK

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-NK
~KingNapoleon:iconKingNapoleon: Mar 26, 2008, 6:23:22 PM
I just got the letter today, and they spent a whole dollar sending me my CD back when I have to go pick up the rest of my portfolio anyway, those silly people). I'm in! Tell me when you hear from them!
~Nikandedd:iconNikandedd: Mar 27, 2008, 4:47:10 PM
Cool! I'm glad to hear that! I guess I'll know sunday when I get back.

I'm nervous again! Shit!

Anyway, congratulations, I knew you'd make it :D

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-NK
~KingNapoleon:iconKingNapoleon: Mar 27, 2008, 10:27:55 PM
Oooh, you have to wait to get it from your University mail? Eegads, that's unpleasant. They shouldn't make you do that. Of course, I think they should have gotten their shit together about deciding a lot sooner than they did to begin with...